My roommate said something to me today, and I am not really sure how to take it. She said that she thinks I am depressed and that I can do more with my life. Now I really do not think I am depressed. I get emotional sometimes, but hey, I am a woman. We are allowed to do that from time to time. As for the latter, it may be true. I procrastinate often and sometimes I just want to eat chocolate and read a book, but when it really matters, I do what I need to do. Or I do what I WANT to do.
You always have a choice in what you do. Like Joan Brandwyn (Julia Stiles) in Mona Lisa Smile, it was her choice not to go to law school. She wanted to be a homemaker, so that is what she did. Now I love my friend and roommate, but I really think she does not want other people to move on without her. She said she sees a lot of her in me, but I don't. We were brought up similarly, but I am more of a country girl, and she city. She never wants to have kids and a family but I do. She never finished her degree and I am about to finish my masters. Not that she is not a smart, beautiful woman who can accomplish anything she wants to, but I really feel like she might just not want me to be happy... without her.
I really do not know what I am say, but I know it is my life and therefore my choice in how I live it.